365 minutes day 211

glad weird is good, I intent to reconstruck the eloborate noise production facilities when I get back to town,... manuals to read,... but mostly I feel musically incompetent now? maybe that is good.

I'm not happy any more, perhaps I will draw, too depressed to read,... pfffffffff, not into photography videos etc,... just make sounds on guitar no food, white tea yes etc,...

cadfael looks good, haven't heard about it, see that there is a dvd,...I'm kinda numb, better than not happy, white tea caused no sleep, drank three liters. Trying to read swans way proust, I have trouble because it's kind of though provoking, My mind sails off the page and I have to read and re read things each take brings a different density and complexity, The paragraphs and sentenses are to long as well that it takes care not to lose my place, the translation I have is relatively new, I do not know French, so it's a bit easier to grapple with than the edition two of the same monolith I'd picked up early in the year,... It's the kind of thing that may require multiple reads of significant paragraphs at leat for me,... also reading some trashy papr back on nixon, talks about riots revolutionaries 60's stuff,...That book requires skimming and some times proustian reading method.

this I tried too, but usually so bleary eyed I mangle a paragraph for a week, best was to shut myself in all day, and between bouts with the guitar I read a few pages, look up the footnotes etc,.. :-)