DEAR ALL

THIS AFTERNOON A LARGE ENVELOPE FULL OF LOVE ARRIVED TODAY !!!!

I AM TOTALLY OVERWHELMED. , I CANT UNDERSTAND WHAT I HAVE DONE TO DESERVE ALL THIS LOVE AND KINDNESS. I ALSO HAVE A BOX FULL OF CARDS SENT OVER THE TIME I WAS IN THE HOSPITAL AND REHAB.

I AM COMPLETELY STUNNED AND AMAZED. I NEVER REALISED HOW MANY PEOPLES LIVES I HAD TOUCHED . I WAS BROUGHT UP TO REACH OUT TO REACH OUT PROPLE WITH A KIND WORD OR DEED . ITS WHAT MY BELOVED PARENTS BROUGHT ME UP TO DO. I HAD CONTACT FROM PEOPLE YEARS AGO WHEN I WAS ON A BIG DOG/CAT SITE... THANKED ME FOR TEACHING THEM BASIC cODING SO THAT THEY COULD 'decorate" their beloved furs pages. heck.. it was the blind leading the blind... but we made pretty pages and firm and lasting frienships.

TheRE is a saying.. beware... what you put out into the world comes back to you TENbfold.. so dont deal in hatred... only in love and kindness.

The love and kundness that has come back to me since that day .. 4th SepteMber has beeN so deeply humbling. it is stopping me from drowning and keeping me afloat.

To day... your wonderful LETTers have given me a liferaTe to read and re-read.

I also know just how lucky I am that my beloved husband Jay knew the 4 critical siNgs of a stroke... and got me help in minuets. I helped nurse a "stroke" failure " here 3 summers ago. the gent was deaf and blind and imobile and was locked in. he had losT all... including his dignity. I was unconscious for nearly 3 weeks and unresponsive... but... I dodged the bullit. thanks to Jay.. and a wonderful brain surgeon. dr Cheema.. that surgeon bluntly stated that 80% of the people who sustained the level of damage that I had survived would not be sitting in his office talking to him. The inference being that they would either be dead or mentally/ physically incapacitated. I

still have some mending to do ... the majour broken bit is the LEFT SIDE NEGLECT tactustherapy.com/what-is-left-neglect problem, WHICH MEANS I WALK INTO ANYTHING AND EVERYTHING AND "LOSE" THINGS ON MY eft side (imagine the fun typing is when you canot see nearly half of the letters ~) i also have horrendous dizzies.

Emotionally the stroke has robbed me of any pEace of mind. I know now i have to wait til September before the surgeon will do anything ... he is cautious and I aM thankful of that.. he wants me to mend as fully as I can without his intervention. i have good days and bad days and just plain sad days

Through all this my beloved husband hS BEEN MY ROCK. HE HAS TO DEAL WITH THE BLACK MOODS AND THE TEARS AND SELF ANGER . HE HAS HAD TO TAKE OVER WALKING MY BELOVED DOGS AS I HAVE NO REAL STRENGTH RIGHT NOW. . THE 3 DOGS ADD UP TO 200 LBS BETWEEN THEM !

SO.... TODAY... YOUR WONDERFUL LETTERS HELPED ME TREMENDOUSLY.. AND I WILL GO BACK TO THEM OFTEN TO KEEP ME AFLOAT.

THANKYOU IS SUCH A SMALL WORD.. BUT IT COMES FROM MY HEART.

I AM HAVING TO RELEARN SOME SKILLS THAT I USED IN MY CRAFT WORK.. AND ON THE COMPUTER. RIGHT NOW NUMBERS OF ANY KIND ARE A HUGE MUDDLE FOR ME. I WILL MEND... I WILL ... ONE STEP AT A TIME.. I WILL WIN.

SORRY ABOOUT THE CAPS FOLKS.. BUT MY SIGHT NEEDS ALL THE HELP IT CAN GET ! THANKYOU ONCE gain...

LOVE AND HUGSSSSS PAM aka "Snowdrops



THIS THANKYOU IS HERE ON IPERNITY www.ipernity.com/blog/pamj/4718430 AND FLICKR www.flickr.com/photos/30349867@N05/47066064172/in/dateposted